I'm not dead!

I think.... It's been awhile. A long while. I needed to step back and examine my life a bit, something that is really hard for me to do. I've went back to the game on and off since my last post. Never staying long, just liking having it around in case I felt like playing/talking to the two friends I have left who play. I haven't seriously played in over a month (August 15th). After stepping back and looking at why I still played/wanted to play/was having a hard time quitting I finally realized that I had really started quitting over two years ago. In the beginning, I was a hardcore raider; I played to group up with people and down big bad bosses. The end of BC was the last time I seriously raided. I did a few runs in WOTLK, but nothing past Ulduar, even in the newest expansion. I stopped caring as much, I enjoyed playing and leveling characters but I stopped really caring. That's when I started quitting. I'd been holding on to something that stopped mattering to me a long time ago, and man it felt pretty silly. The friend I really enjoyed talking to finally quit as well and now I keep in touch on xbox so I uninstalled again on September 15th.

Now that I have that out of the way! I'm working on getting back to who I was before everything seemed to fall out of place. Goal number one is changing my diet. I lived on pure crap when I played, heck even before then I never really ate well. My whole life pretty much was filled with crap food that made me feel good but made my body all kinds of sad. Do you know how hard it is to eat food that isn't processed? Especially for someone who is pretty picky about certain fruits and veggies! I'm getting better though. I'm trying to be a lot more open minded about stuff like that, though I still refuse to eat fish and probably always will (ew). I'm doing my best to keep to a five ingredient rule, or at least the least amount of ingredients as possible. It's kind of shocking when you look at how much junk is in "healthy" foods. I'm also trying to cook more, although I hate the extra dishes it's amazing actually wanting to be in the kitchen again.

I've started getting passionate about writing again. I want to find my old poetry so I can see how angst ridden I was in my teens :) I've been developing a new story about a shapeshifter. Fitting considering how I used to play druids :-P I'm also helping my sister with her latest book idea, and she's helping me. It's fun having a sounding board. I've been slowly working my way through the pile of books that were sitting on my kitchen table for way too long. I'm down to four or five left!

My gaming now consists of playing xbox every few days (mainly red dead redemption, I love riding the horses lol) and playing Sims 3. I watch a lot of TV too, but I make sure to ride my exercise bike every day for at least part of the time I'm watching. This weekend the husband and I are planning on converting the upper shelf of our closet to a cat area, and building some stairs for the less agile cats. Two of our cats already go up there, unfortunately by way of using our clothes as a ladder. I figure this way we can save our clothes, and the cats that can't climb/jump that high get a new sanctuary from the dogs. The dogs don't mess with them, but cats love high places that they can sleep without worrying about having to move. It's nice having weekend plans that don't involve sitting down all weekend!